I’ve learnt a lot about autism, and thus myself, since I began blogging.
I mentioned infodumping in my last post. Autistics like to share what they know. When I came across it, I was like “Hey, that’s me!” I used to do that all the time with my special interests, to the frequent exasperation of those around me.
Why did I flap my hands as a child when I was excited? As an adult why do I rub my hair or pace when I’m agitated? Stims! They’re my stims!
Why did I so greatly enjoy eating? Problems with my Interoception!
Why are physical sensations so intense for me? Food has more flavour, smells are more fragrant, sounds are louder and richer, colours are sharper, and touch is either unpleasant or enjoyable. Sensory Processing Disorder!
Why does music affect me to the point that when I attended a Tori Amos concert somebody thought I was tripping balls? IDK, but music often has funny effects on autistics.
I’ve also been seeing posts on autism with ADHD, and I’m starting to wonder if I’m also ADHD. The two conditions are frequently comorbid, and I’m recognising bits of myself in the ADHD symptoms and behaviours descriptions.
As the saying goes, “Know thyself”. It has been very enlightening to know myself.